Hi i'm hanan. Narcissist with self-esteem issues //// sleep is my second lover. 16.

" W E W E R E A L L F L O W E R S "
" B U T I ' M T H E O N L Y
F L O W E R L E F T "

slowly finding blame in myself for everything that's happening. they say it's a vicious cycle. i can't seem to find anyone else to blame though.

even if i was getting hit by another person's fist, i'd think it's myself that's throwing that hit.

it's unsettling and oddly comforting. like some sort of reassurance that in the end, the only person truly getting hurt is me. i will hurt those around me, i will affect the hearts that look out for me.

but no one will hurt as much as me, who blames herself.

it's like some sort of definitive point in this uncertain, undefined life.
oddly comforting. oddly filling. all while making me feel emptier.