on a completely different note, how pseudo-emo do i sound in these previous posts huh.

just not articulate enough to sound tasteful while trying to genuinely express these genuine feelings.

i'm glad i've been able to find a sense of humor while ploughing through my ever growing problems that are slowly evolving into adult themed issues. 

maybe this is all a side effect of that strange depersonalisation and derealisation i've been facing. lovely.

xx

going forward, going back.

after some searching, i've learned lots of thing about myself, yet i've simultaneously given myself twice as many unanswered questions. but i guess that's  what defines life.

i may have found the diagnosis to my strange feelings that i've felt over the course of this slightly-less-than-a-decade or so.

kind of amused. kind of scared to approach the subject of my mental imbalance. but i'm quite sure what i feel is not the norm. at least i'm not killing people? hah

i'm fast approaching adulthood, and i think it's only appropriate i am proactive in solving the problems that plague me physically, mentally, and emotionally. no one ever said it was going to be easy, though. time to go back to the drawing board and see what happens next.

xx